19.1.2013

11.43a.m. 

Morning! =)

Just woke up

Full of energy now! =D

Two of my babe housemate still sleeping???

Hmm...they are BIG BIG PIG!! xD

How are you?

I'm just fine here =)

I cried yesterday...

I don't know why

Scroll down and saw their post in Facebook

My two babe housemate keep scolding me

But the problem is I still got a little bit can't let go

I need some time...

Give me some time 

I sure can let go

Some of them said find a new boyfriend

Then I can let go easily and focus the new one

But the problem is

Nobody want me? 

I think so.. haha

The main point is...

I still can't accept new relationship

I scare of relationship now

I scare get hurt one more time T.T

What can I do now?

Focus on my studies

I can't let my parents disappointed

Because they put a lot of afford on me

Feel like want to hang out with my friend have some party and go to pub or clubbing drink until drunk!

I will find some day go there releases my stress and my fucking uncomfortable emotion! 

Start doing my assignment again =(

A lot of assignment waiting for me

trouble, trouble and trouble  ><

-END-

17.1.2013

11.12pm

just came back from mamak

and go pasar malam bought some fruit too

yeah!! i have no class tomorrow

free until Sunday

how happy am i!! =D

thinking my friend where is he? 

it is reach Ireland already??

i will miss him

he go there 4 years for study investment 

wish him all the best and good luck to him!!

miss him

although we lose contact about 7 years

but then

i will miss him too

listening song : I forgive you - Kelly Clarkson

do nothing

relax

tomorrow go to gym

long time I didn't go to gym already

is the time to go

don't waste my money ><

Today, after class

went shopping with my brother, don don xD

what i bought???

two watch!!! @@

i like it so much!

which is black color and red color

i like red color for this moment

i don't know why

just feel the color very sharp

cool

and I like it! =D

maybe I will go shopping again after gym =D

tomorrow just go to college workout and shopping

what a relax day ^^

now i know

the reason why i start to write blog

the reason is 

i try to write it down every single thing in everyday and every moment

cause i don't want to miss it

ulala~~~

time to sleep now

i'm tired

good night

sweet dream

17.1.2013

short post here

just came back from mamak

met him just now

wtf?!! lalala~~

just let go...

dnt think too much

he is nothing for you

useless for you to think about it

just wasting your time

and

your energy

no worth at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired

good night =)

15.1.2013 learn to let go

WHAT!!!!!!

AM I DREAMING???!!!!

no..telling myself...

when i woke up, first thing is sign in my Facebook

after sign in

what i saw is.....

??? and ??? in a relationship

what?

it is true? 

yes...

it is...

got a little bit upset

they officially together

i met them just now

pretending nothing

smile all the time =)

i know I'm not happy

why i still can't let it go?

is it is my own problem???????

why he can?

i have no answer

thinking and thinking

emo? unhappy?

yes, a little bit

just came back from college

tired

i freaking hate this semester

why my time table end at 7 o'clock??? by EVERYDAY??

what the hell... ><

no other choice

i had to accept it

oh God~~~

window shopping before my class started

with my babe housemate ^^

Chinese New Year is around the corner

what had i bought?

nothing...seriously???

yes...even new shirt also not yet buy...

because of what?

no money?? 

nooooo...

no transport???

noooo.....

no people accompany and give some suggestion when i buying cloth?

of course no, i like shopping alone

no time??

YES!! I"M NO TIME TO BUY NEW CLOTH!!! T.T

how pity am i...

ulala~~~~ulala~~

some of my friend try to cheer me up

thanks!! love you <3

wish I'm getting better and let go as fast as possible

can i do it?

noooo... /.\

 i need timeeee

although we already broke up almost 9 months...

stress

have a lot of assignment need to do

what a busyyy lifeeee

my lecture gave us one question and ask all of us to research

what is the question???

all of us get shock when get the question... O.o

the question is....

FIND OUT 2 TYPES OF WATER??

what???

water??? types???

oh my God...

just water laaaa..

anything inside the water???

i don't know

give me some time to figure out

i like capture

this is me

nobody can replace me

my style

my everything

END

14.1.2013

just came back from college

i'm tired

today i had two practical classes

oh goddd!!! 

i'm stand for whole day just because of the fine dinning practical class

damn tired ><

asking myself, what i had learned today?

answer : how to control the dish in sequence and make the restaurant operation smoothly all the time

that's what i had learned from fine dinning for today? 

hahaha

overall, first day of the operation of the fine dinning practical class is not bad

i'm quiet satisfy with my performance

feel good

hope it is a new beginning for me in this practical classes =D

wish myself good luck and all the best! 

hopefully i will pass all the subject in semester 3

another practical class is BBB

which is Bar, Beverage and Batista

today...

we had alcoholic drinks testing today

i had tasted a lot of alcoholic beverages in that practical class

besides, i had also learned about the varieties of glasses

I'm interested in this subject

i want to do well in this.

i cut my hair short!!!

i love my short hair!! <3

always telling myself

moved on! 

don't stand there and do nothing

improve!

This is my short hair! ^^

this is what i get from my friend...

YES! I'm SINGLE!

so what? just change it! 

but....

someday...

i hope...

 i will meet one guy

who was

 caring about their parents, treat them nicely,

concern and care about me, don't leave and dump me , treat me nicely,

love me, and treat me by sincere.. .. 

i'm waiting....

and...

waiting...

舍不得...

午安...

又是新的一天，新的开始

突然觉得...

我是时候改变的

不知道哪来的推动力...

答应我自己，不可以在原地踏步了

必须往前走...

我有一班好朋友

他们就像我的生命

他们对我来说很重要

没有了他们

我觉得我会一个人吧

感谢他们对我的好

我会珍惜他们

因为有了他们我并不孤单

有两件开心的事

第一件事

和我从小玩到大11年的好朋友

她的男朋友和他求婚了

哈哈哈

替她感到开心

很羡慕她有一个那么要好又疼她的男朋友 :)

好舍不得她

和她说了，我要做她的姐妹

第二件事

失去联络很久的朋友突然和我联络

原来他上完小学以后就搬去别的地方求学了

因此我们就失去了联络

突然联络我说他有我的电话号码

我也很意外

我们有聊不完的话题，聊到凌晨3点钟

和他聊天我很开心

伤心的是，他16号就要前往爱尔兰求学了

虽然中间有一段时间我们已尽失去联络

但我还是有点舍不得他 :( 

他读的课程是投资管理

答应他了

我会是他的第一个顾客 :)

给他点信心 :D

不会返回

想到我的两个朋友

就觉得

我是时候迈向前一步了

为了我的前途

为了我的梦想

为了我的理想

为了我的幸福

为了不让再辛苦赚钱的爸妈失望

不管路在艰辛

我都回克服下去！

答应自己不会再哭

要坚强下去

因为

我知道

“成功” 离我不远了

新的我

第一次玩部落各的我

2013...

对我来说是充满艰难和挑战性的一年

有很多东西我不知道从哪里开始做起

在学业上，有的我不明白和看不懂...

我搞不清...

我不明白...

也不懂...

昨天我和“他”在电梯里

一个空间

这是有史以来我和他很开以后，最近最近的一段距离

每当我想起我和他的美好回忆

我都回开始伤心起来

很多人告诉我， 骂我说叫我放开...

他这不好，那不对的...

“放开”

这个字对我来说很难...

也许，或者是注定的吧...

我也听说“他”开始和一个女孩子交往了

每天都会遇见他们

我只好以笑带过

我每一次都回告诉我自己，不要再原地踏步了！！！向前走吧！！！

可是...

我就是不能...

每次我都会潇洒的告诉他们；“我没事啊” ；“谁在乎啊”；“管他的”

可是我的心还是有会在意

我不想让他们担心...

尤其是我的好朋友...

和他分手的7，8个月多，我还是一样

只有他在改变...

还没有真正的放下

可是说我们是最熟

距离很近但又是最远的陌生人

谢谢你Andrew =)